There aren’t really words I can use to explain this past month.
Going into YTT I didn’t expect a whole lot- just thought I’d be doing some yoga and learning enough to teach a class.
But a month later, I feel a whole new sense of myself awakened.
It wasn’t just yoga, and it wasn’t a relaxing yoga retreat by the mountains. It was intense. The schedule was long, getting up at 5:30 am was tough, and I truly had to learn how to ride the waves. There were days where all I did was laugh, and there were days where I was overcome with so much emotion. Looking at old scars and re-reading their stories wasn’t easy. I’m all about feeling your feelings, but it’s hard for me to feel those feelings in public: more specifically cry. Yet I found myself crying on my mat twice and taking off my armor that I sometimes grip so heavily onto. I was vulnerable and real: and so were the other 43 humans in my training.
I can’t fully explain the amount of joy that this past month brought me. A feeling of accomplishment, new incredible connections formed with amazing souls, and a deeper love for yoga and meditation. Just wow. There were times in the training where I was like, “wtf what am I doing… is this even worth it?” There were times where I felt like throwing in the towel, or when shavasana truly put me to sleep and I didn’t feel like getting up.
YTT isn’t a walk throw the prairie. It’s some damn hard work. Having one day off a week and going non-stop was an adjustment. But man was I learning about the coolest things. And teaching yoga just brings so much light into my life. Being able to lead other humans through a practice I love is so cool- and I pray to be able to continue teaching others.
The people I met were amazing. Always making me laugh and bringing good energy into my soul. Laughter was essential this past month. So I’m thankful for friends who farted in yoga to keep me chuckling.
Time with nature was essential too. Living right by the mountains was unreal. I would love being so close to all the hiking spots. Adventuring into the woods was such an escape for me. Nature walks and hiking make me feel a part of something greater than myself.
Participating in a 28 hour day of silence taught me a whole lot too. Not using my phone, not engaging in conversations with others, no texting… it was eye opening. It was so hard for me to just sit and be at first. But practice makes progress and this was a very valuable experience.
YTT was hands-down one of the most amazing experiences I’ve had in this 20 years thus far. Learning about yoga, living the yoga, and witnessing my two instructors live the yoga and live wholeheartedly was so inspiring. This past month is one I’ll cherish forever. My sanga- community- is one that has left an imprint on my heart. Do the things that scare you, do the things that awaken your soul. I was scared taking off for a month and doing this training, but my god am I so glad I did. I love adventures, I don’t like staying put… and this little adventure was a true testament to that. I know I’ll have more adventures and more time to expand my knowledge and growth, but for now: YTT has truly done that for me.
Thank you for your patience with my lack of blogging this past month. I’ll be back doing it from now on and I’m excited to be writing and connecting with you all!
So much love for you humans on the internet.