I can never force a blog post or an Instagram. That’s just not me. Just like I can never force a feeling or force myself to like something/someone. My life is not based off force: it’s based off authenticity. Creating a space that my heart thrives in, living a life of ease. Forcing does not produce the magic: an open heart and embracing what’s real does.
This blog means so much to me, and so does my Instagram. The content of my posts have changed and how much I post a week has changed as well. Just like a river I flow through each season of life, and instead of forcing something that doesn’t feel good to me, I let the river flow. But everything that I do write, everything I do put out into the world comes from all crevices of my heart. I put a lot of value into that.
This space right now in my life is different than it was a month ago, a year ago, two years ago. This space now is one that’s inviting more growth in. One where I have incredible friends who challenge my old ways: who tell me to get that cookie. Sleep in an extra hour. Check in with my intentions behind doing things. Stop talking poorly of someone who puts a bad taste in my mouth. These humans provoke growth and radiate so much love into my life.
This space right now is allowing me to share so many laughs and genuine smiles with my roommate/best friend. A friend who grounds me, listens to me, supports me. Always bringing me back to the beauty that is human connection.
This space is going to be getting busier. With yoga teaching starting Monday, as well as meetings for a women’s retreat I’m helping lead; the pace will be speeding up a bit. And I’m going to need to remind myself to pause and recenter. Refocus, breathe, and bring myself back to the present moment.
This space is not perfect. It gets cluttered and oh so messy.
This space here on the Internet doesn’t get as many views as it did last year, or the space I have on Instagram doesn’t have as many followers as others; but I’m doing what I love. “I’m becoming fluid in choosing me.” Choosing what feels authentic in the moment and allowing myself to write/post/do what makes ME happy.
This space is still one of singleness. Doing my life without a male by my side. Something I will talk about more down the line, but something I am still working on: not settling for another human- for I am already whole as is. I am a complete puzzle, and everyday I’m working on feeling that way. Not running from the loneliness that used to terrify me and instead running towards the confidence and fierceness that’s beginning to flow through my veins.
This space is one of vulnerability, laughter, change, love, smiles, tears, anger, frustration, friendships, family, authenticity, and adventure. I am blessed to be able to take it all in with every single inhale.
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