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Freedom Friday #2

February 9, 2018 in Freedom Friday

Another Freedom Friday. Friends, this series makes me so so happy. What does it all entail? Freedom. Whether this freedom encompasses letting go of your eating disorder, removing yourself from a toxic relationship, freeing yourself of depression or anxiety, breaking away from orthorexia or exercise addiction… I want to hear your story. And I want to share it. Your story is precious and deserves to be heard. If you want to be featured, email me, DM me on Instagram, contact me in some way, and let’s chat. I have a set of ears that’s willing to listen and a blog that I want to use to share your journey to freedom.


The second post of this series is from a lovely friend of mine, Sophia, @sophia.sun.wellness on Instagram. Sophia helps women awaken and work towards intuitive eating. She offers coaching for food and body wisdom on her website here and has a lot of beautiful knowledge to share. I hope you give this human some love as she opens up about her journey to freedom with us!

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My eating issues began in Kindergarten.

I was a sensitive & Intuitive little girl, who felt like her dream world was taken away the moment she was put into the school “system”. I was told I had learning disabilities right away; it crushed my sense of self. I began stealing snacks from a girl in my class. It became an everyday thing, I became a food addict at age 7.

My eating issues only got worse, binge eating, sneaking food, obsessing over food, my whole mind was consumed. I began gaining weight in 3d grade and started to hate my body. My body changed faster then the other girls in class. I was heavy. At age 17 I weighed almost 300 pounds. I couldn’t stop eating. My mom came to me one night and shared her concerns about my weight and eating issues. We decided it was time for an intervention – I went to a weight loss camp. This began my weight loss journey.

I lost 140 pounds going into my college years, and instead of over eating, I went into the other extreme.

I never learned to tune in to my body.

I was still trapped in my Eating Disorder.

After years of obsession with being thin I had a breaking point, I had become sick from over doing it. I burned myself out.

I wanted my LIFE, a life without eating disorders.

I began a spiritual path & discovered Intuitive Eating, I enjoyed this because it took me into myself, whereas before I was always seeking on the outside.

My Intuitive Eating journey healed my body and my relationship with food. Total food freedom, while still being aware of my Body Wisdom. I began to love my body as she decided who she wanted to be, and what size was healthy for her. It became a beautiful process. This is what I teach in my program Food Body Wisdom. I am now a coach for young women on the healing journey with food & eating disorders.

Intuitive eating gave me freedom, and gave me my life back! Now I can explore the beauty of this body, food & life! It’s wonderful.

If you’re on this journey, drop my a heart, & I’ll send you back a million.

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Keep working towards a life of greater freedom friends. Happiest of weekends friends. 🙂

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Repairing Broken Relationships

December 8, 2017 in Recovery

My eating disorder destroyed my relationships. It left me numb, angry, depressed, and alone. My eating disorder did not let me have any companions besides the ED itself. It was too exhausting. Other people ruined ED and I’s relationship. They got in the way of food rules. They did not eat how I did. They took away from workout time. They disrupted my strict food routine. In my eating disorder, it was just me and the disorder doing “life,” or at the time what seemed like fully living, by ourselves.

The relationships broken hurt me, yet I was to sick to let that motivate me on my journey towards healing. The relationship with my parents slipped away from my fingertips, and that was the one that hurt the most.

Meal time was a war zone in our household. My parents, two of the people whom gave me so much love and light, become enemies in my eyes. They wanted to feed me, something my disorder and I did not want in the slightest. I began to see my parents as horrible human beings just because they were trying to nourish me. They spent years talking to my eating disorder instead of Alyssa, and I can’t imagine how exhausting and frustrating that must have been.

I never thought I’d be able to repair this relationship. When things were bad in my household, they weren’t just a few raised voices here and there. It was tears, thrown yogurts, yelling, and days went without speaking to give my family members the silent treatment. I saw very little hope in living a normal life again and having my relationships, especially the one with my Mom and Dad, be fixed.

When I went into treatment on my own terms and willingly admitted to my mother that this disorder was suffocating me, I began to feel the chains of this disorder loosen. I began to feel something besides extreme anger and frustration, and it was an incredibly powerful moment for me. Fast forward to when I was out of treatment and to the start of a new year where I was actively trying to shove my eating disorder to the curb, I had more powerful moments like that. And I was beginning to see that without my eating disorder, I could feel my Mother’s love. And because my eating disorder wasn’t holding me hostage and letting me simply feel, I was able to reciprocate that love back to her. Fast forward a few months, I was able to do the same thing for my Father. When I stopped caring so damn much about how many calories I was eating and if I ate too much etc. etc. etc., I could care about others, and others could have more emotions towards me besides worry and fear; for they saw that I was getting ahold of my life and this disorder. I was working towards freedom.

I apologized to my parents several times. They apologized to me. There was tremendous forgiveness: of myself, of my parents… forgiveness that my parents had to grasp for themselves and of me. Trust had to be earned that I would not slip back into ED’s ways: both on my end and my parent’s. With time, this all flowed together. With time, I began to realize how much love I had in my heart that I wanted to share with others. This emotion had been taken from me for so many years while living in my illness, and I was so happy to spread it. My friendships returned: both old and new, my brother and I became closer, and my parents and I were able to have a wonderful, healthy, loving relationship despite all that we had gone through on this journey of healing together.

Time heals all wounds. But first, you need to actively work on healing your own.

Seek help: for yourself, knowing that when you are your best self, you can give so much more to others and have stronger relationships. Let go of your eating disorder. Soften. You will see how when you let go of ED, you will regain back these connections you thought were long gone.

Find some fight in your soul. An ED will not take all connections and healthy relationships from you if you don’t let it.

Have a blessed weekend friends! Hope you do something kind for yourself and spend time with the people who make you smile. xoxo 

Post Thanksgiving Reminders

November 24, 2017 in Recovery

Yesterday was a lovely day. My family and I went on a beautiful nature walk, relaxed, and went to dinner at this yummy place. It was so nice to just chill and be present in the moment.

I know Thanksgiving is a challenging time for anyone recovering from an eating disorder. I know the Holidays can seem daunting in general. I know the day after Thanksgiving can seem overwhelming. I understand these feelings. I wanted to give you all some reminders post-Thanksgiving to keep yourself on course with your self-love journey.

  1. What you ate yesterday does not dictate what you eat today. You need food today. Nourish yourself. Nourish your body. Nourish your soul.
  2. It’s okay if you feel a little bloated today. The bloat will pass. It always does. Remind yourself this: the bloat always passes, but the memories you made on Thanksgiving will always be with you. Hold that close to your heart. The bloat fades away but the memories last forever. 
  3.  Do not kill yourself in the gym today. Do not force your body to do any movement if you don’t want to. You do not have to run 5 miles today. You do not have to do anything if that’s what feels best for you. Do not use movement as a form of punishment.
  4. Diet talk will be around you. It’s inevitable. Focus on you and your personal journey. Do not engage in this talk. Do not let this talk dictate your actions. You know what’s best for you. Just because someone is saying they need to go on a diet does NOT mean you do. YOU know what you need, and you do not need a diet.
  5. Do not fall in the “get back on track” mentality. You never “fell off” the track. You just ate a Thanksgiving meal. That’s it! No need to shame yourself for that and fall victim to the “get back on track” thinking. Keep doing what you usually do: listening to your body, being gentle with yourself, and honoring what you need.
  6.  Stop worrying! Take a deep breath. You got this. Keep filling your heart with love for YOURSELF and stop wasting energy on disordered thoughts around food and self-hatred. Let those thoughts flow out of your brain.

Need some extra support today?

Read these posts!

-> You don’t need to get “back on track”

-> Food is just Food

-> Your Diet is not the Catalyst to Happiness

-> Bloating 

Sending you all love, wishing you peace, and hoping you had a great Holiday with loved ones!

Xoxo

Lyss<3

Apologize to Yourself

November 13, 2017 in Recovery

I think a lot. It’s who I am. I’m a thinker. Sometimes that’s great, sometimes that’s bad. But I embrace it regardless.

One thing I think a lot about is how we treat ourselves. The way I have treated myself is definitely a valid reason for why I reflect so much on this topic, but also I see many other people treating themselves so poorly. And it really does hurt my heart.

Whether it’s negative self-talk, falling victim to an eating disorder, letting the mirror dictate how you feel, comparing yourselves to others, self-harming, pushing yourself day-in and day-out with excessive exercise, or not accepting yourself for who you truly are; all of these actions are actions of cruelty against the self.

Think how many bad things you have said in regards to your body. Maybe you’re ashamed of it. Ashamed of how you look. Or maybe you just simply hate your body and can find no appreciation for it, because it is not “thin enough” or “toned enough.” And when you’re getting caught in this thought cycle, have you ever once just said, “I am sorry, body.” For your body is not something you should be ashamed of. How could you carry an abundance of hatred for something that has taken you through life thus far, allows you to breath, and pumps blood throughout your body? Your body, it is not bad nor has it ever been bad. And just because you have some belly rolls and stretch marks on your thighs does not qualify it to be bad. So please, apologize to your body. Your body is an unappreciated miracle.

Think of how many destructive things you have done to your body. Restricting. Purging. Self-harm. Laxative abuse. Overexercise. You have harmed yourself. You have hurt your body. You have hurt something that works relentlessly to keep you alive. Give your body an apology for that. For the destructive behaviors you have done against it. It never asked to be treated that way. Your body never deserved those acts of harm.

We are so hard- on ourselves, on our bodies. I see so many individuals go on in this life hating themselves. But hate is heavy, and we must let it go. 

“Be melting snow. Wash yourself of yourself.” -Rumi

We must wash ourselves of our own love, even if we feel like it’s impossible to find. We must stop treating our bodies with such cruelty. We must apologize to ourselves for the hate we projected onto ourselves. We never deserved that hate. Our bodies are the one piece of the universe we’ve been given- how amazing is that? We must be softer with ourselves friends. We are enough. Our bodies are crafted so wonderfully. We do not need to hurt them.

You are so whole and complete as you are. It’s time to just give yourself a hug, apologize to your body, soften, and let go. 

“You are a divine being. You matter, you count. You come from realms of unimaginable power and light.”

Give yourself a hug today friends. Let your light shine. You are SO incredibly enough. Wishing you all a happy Monday. <3 xoxo

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Let Go

October 23, 2017 in Recovery

“There is peace in surrender.” 

On the 20 years I’ve been on this planet, I’ve learned that in creating more peace in my life, I’ve had to let go of what was hurting me. My eating disorder, toxic relationships, activities, sports, unhealthy coping mechanisms, etc. I get asked a lot how I overcame certain things, more specifically, my eating disorder and depression. Sometimes I struggle in formulating a great response, because there was no 4 step plan that I followed and felt automatically cured. A lot of my healing came in truly abandoning what was generating the most pain and suffering in my life.

A lot of us with eating disorders or mental illnesses don’t understand the concept of “softening.” Anorexia made me very hard, it made my edges sharp and left me with a constant itch to control every situation. Everything I ate, every workout I did… this is what I was always thinking about. I held on tightly to my love for restricting calories and purging my food through laxatives and overexercise, because it’s what felt easy for me. This is how I coped with the unknown of life, with the feelings that were not so pretty, with the anxieties that clouded my head. When we find a coping skill, we cling onto it: and this is what I did with my eating disorder- to the point that this disorder became who I was. What happened in my brain that ultimately led to a shift in how I was living my life? I realized what I was doing was not living. It was surviving. And from that point forward, I softened and let go. Was it a straight, easy path in letting go? Absolutely not. And I will never put that message out on the Internet or Instagram that my journey has’t been tough. Because it has been- it’s been messy and confusing, for losing the one thing that you thought was a part of you… losing your one coping skill… that’s challenging. But with inner strength, outside support, and just realizing it is so worth it to truly let go, you will find that peace in surrendering to this disorder.

Depression, on the other hand, made me numb. It left me with the inability to feel anything but sadness. I gripped onto the numb feeling, and felt guilt when any bit of happiness passed through me. I did not “deserve” that feeling like others did, and my mind left me convinced of that. With depression came unhealthy coping skills like sleeping too much, crying- a lot, isolating myself, and self-harming. These coping skills were what felt comfortable for me at the time. I let my depression harden me, make me weak, and leave me in a crippling state of sadness. It is what I knew, and it is how I thought my life was supposed to be. The same shift happened in my brain just as it did with my eating disorder. I realized what I was doing was not living. It was surviving. So again, I let go. I let go and in doing so realized other ways to cope with life’s difficulties that were far healthier than what depression gave me. I forgave myself for what this illness did to me, I did not rush my healing process, and I ultimately realized that strength did not come from holding onto my eating disorder or depression: what made me the strongest human came in letting go and surrendering. 

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“Letting go: being courageous to let go of things that make you feel bad and no longer serve you. /letting go creates space for something better/.” 

What are you going to let go of today? How are you going to soften? 

xoxo

lyss

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Staying Rooted in Recovery

October 6, 2017 in Recovery

When looking at my recovery from my eating disorder, I’ve definitely gone through seasons where thing have been a bit easier on my brain, and thing have been a bit tougher. Do I consider myself fully recovered? Yes. Yes in the sense that I do not use behaviors anymore, and I haven’t for a LONG time. But there are things I am not perfect with, and I attribute that to simply being human. I still carry negative thoughts about myself from time to time, sometimes I don’t have all “high quality” thoughts around food and exercise, and there are days that I struggle getting  fully in touch with my intuition in aspects of food and exercise. Do I think full recovery is possible? It depends what you define full recovery as. I don’t think it’s possible to make all of these thoughts go away, and like I’ve said before, I do not think it is remotely possible to go back to the life before your eating disorder. If you define full recovery as a life free from all bad body image days& all worries about your body/food/exercise thrown out the window, then I don’t think that’s possible. But I DO think full recovery is possible in the sense that you can live a life where food, exercise, and body image does not control you!! I 10000% believe that is possible and that’s why I consider myself fully recovered from my eating disorder: these things don’t derail me in living my life!

There are certain things I check in with to make sure I am rooted in my recovery.

  1. Who I am following on Instagram. This is HUGE! Unfollow people that will trigger you. Personally, I do not like following fitness accounts, health obsessed accounts, or the new blend of “fitness ED recovery” accounts. Don’t feel guilty to unfollow people who are holding you back on your journey.
  2. What is your intention? What is your intention behind a workout? Is your intention to go because you truly want to, or to go because you feel like you “should”? Is your intention to get that salad because your body truly wants vegetables or just because you’ll feel bad if you have that sandwich and potato chips? Keep your intention aligned with your values. 
  3. How are you talking about yourself? Keep the thoughts that you plant into your brain positive ones. Toxic thoughts do not bring about good behavior or good feelings. Sometimes lying to yourself on a bad day and repeating a mantra you may not fully believe at that time can make such a big difference.
  4. Are you fully listening to your body? Eating when hungry, sleeping that extra half hour instead of squeezing in a workout, choosing to do yoga over a more intense workout because that’s what your body is craving, spending time for self-care when your soul needs it instead of taking that time to go to the gym, etc.  Our bodies tell us cues: listen to them.
  5. Am I nourishing my soul? Doing the things that keep me truly happy: yoga, writing, reading, getting outside in nature, surrounding myself with the humans who bring me beautiful energy. Nourishing our bodies AND our souls is so essential for a happier life.

Stay grounded and rooted in your journey, friends. 

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*believe, always.*

Have a lovely long weekend beautiful creatures!! 

xoxo. <3 

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We Are Like Oceans

September 11, 2017 in Recovery

~ You are an ocean. Like waves you rise and fall, sometimes crashing so ferociously into the sand with the strongest under toe. But always returning to steadiness. For the water consumes all your past hurt and pain, leaving you to float so effortless among the fishes beneath you. You are never alone here in these deep blue waters. Oceans are so beautiful- full of life and energy; just like you.  ~

We really are like oceans. Our minds are in a constant ripple of thoughts- sometimes good, sometimes bad. We learn to swim with the tide, just like we learn to move with the challenges of our lives. We find rhythm among the water, just like we find rhythm in our daily routines. We carry so much strength within us, just like the ocean carries so much strength and power.

But sometimes we treat oceans poorly too. We forget to take care of them. We don’t give them as much love and care as we should. We emit so much CO2 into the atmosphere which causes our oceans to acidify- leading to so many beautiful living creatures suffering or dying. We are doing the same thing to ourselves. When we emit toxic thoughts into our brains, we are setting ourselves up for suffering and pain. How can beauty grow when we plant seeds of hate into our brains?

Stop. Stop showering yourself with negative thoughts about yourself, your body, your life. Oceans do not need toxicity, and neither do you. Stop beating yourself up for every time you fall or fail. The ocean waves are constantly falling for in order to rise, we need to fall. Accept your low points without judging yourself for them… and truly accept them for what they are. You will move forward and grow despite feeling so small and weak. You will be okay.

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You will be messy in this life. You will feel scattered and all over the place. Do not let this discourage you. The ocean is messy and scattered, yet it continues to flow- and so should you.

Remember you are in charge of your thoughts… of course we cannot think positively all the time. Vibrate higher on the days you are feeling low and not thinking the best thoughts. Remember to respect yourself just as you respect the ocean waters. Do not go by living this life feeling worthless and unlovable… for you have so much worth and you are so worthy of love. Move with your heart through the ups and downs, the high points and the low points.

*happiest of Mondays to you… sending light and love to all you lovely beings. go flow so effortlessly like the ocean waters today and be KIND to yourself!! xoxo

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A Brief Q&A

August 18, 2017 in About Me / Recovery

Happy Friday loves! How has your week been? Weird how time just keeps flyin’ by so dang quickly.

Answering some questions I get asked a lot here today and rambling about some other stuff with you friends so let’s get started.

Do you track macros? 

Nope! Never have and never will. I think it’s too time consuming and takes away from me living my best live. I would much rather be engaged and in the moment than worrying about how many macros I was eating.

Calories vs listening to your body? 

I don’t believe that any human should have to count calories. In recovery from an ED that may be a different story, but any other individual should never feel obligated to count how many calories they’re consuming. When we count calories and put a limit on how much we can or can’t eat, we are confusing our bodies and throwing its natural hunger signals off. Our bodies sends us so many messages and it is such a shame to not listen to them. Honor and respect these signals, eat when you are hungry, listen to your mental hunger, stop when you are full, respect your cravings, give your body the downtime it needs… treat yourself with love and admiration: not with rules and regulations.

Tips for healthy hair? 

My hair became very thin during my ED. I lost a lot of my hair, and I didn’t take any supplements to get it back. I know that collagen can be a huge help for healthy and thicker hair, but I just trusted the process. I gave myself enough nutrients and let food truly heal me: including healing my hair! I have thick and healthy hair now and I am so blessed.

Tips for staring yoga? 

I started in a studio, but I think starting at home or a beginners class is great too. Get yourself a mat and just see where this practice takes you. There is no timeline for yoga to learn a certain pose by, that’s what’s so beautiful about this practice. It’s just you and your mat, and you evolving on your mat. Find a studio you like, connect with a teacher who makes your practice even more wonderful, develop a practice at home, check out the yoga videos on YouTube!

Overcoming fear foods? 

I had to stop labeling foods as good and bad in my mind. Sure, there are some foods that are more nutritious, but that does not make those foods “better” than another. And it did not make me a better human if I only ate those foods. Untying my morality from the food I ate helped me grow tremendously in overcoming my fear of certain foods. Another thing that helped me was incorporating the foods I was afraid of back into my diet at a steady pace. Instead of eating all the things that used to scare me, I slowly added them back in, used my coping skills, and practiced self-compassion for myself when I ate these foods that used to terrify me. Food should never be scary, it is simply fuel for our bodies and minds!

Favorite quotes lately? 

Why don’t we all take a lesson

from the sun

that consistently shows up 

every morning 

just to illuminate our worlds

inspite of how it burned

in its own heat 

all night?”

“You got to learn how to vibe alone. You can’t live your life being dependent on other sources of energy. You have the ability to be self sufficient so tap into yourself once in a while.”

The only thing I know is this: I am full of wounds and still standing on my feet.”

You will grow from the dirt they left you in.”

“Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden where the flowers are dead.”

Thanks for reading guys!!

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What’s your favorite quote lately? 

Do you take anything for healthier hair?! 

Weekend plans? 

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Stop Food Shaming

June 22, 2017 in Balance / Recovery

STOP FOOD SHAMING… STOP. 

The other day I was viewing Instagram stories, and I saw someone shame another’s food choices. And to me it came off as they were “better” for eating that clean protein bar, and the other person was not as good for eating that Nature Valley bar.

There is NO good or bad food. Food is just food. And I am so tired of seeing this message being spread on social media platforms. 

My instant reaction to that Instagram story was frustration. This is why our society has such an unhealthy relationship with food. When we are constantly hearing different foods that are good for us and foods that are bad for us, we start to view food as such a black and white thing. And in order to have a balanced relationship with food, you need to be able to see the grey areas.

Yes, an RX bar is more nutritious than a Nature Valley one, but there is absolutely nothing wrong with having a Nature Valley bar. It is still fuel, it still has some wholesome ingredients, and they are cheaper than RX bars. Nature Valley bars are not bad, and RX bars are not good. These bars are just snack bars to give our bodies fuel. That’s it. You are not a better person if you chose to eat the RX bar over the Nature Valley bar. Our morality is not tied to the foods we eat, and we often lose sight of that. If you want to eat the RX bar because you actually enjoy it and it feels good for your body, then by all means eat it! But do not go vocalizing to others and in your own head how that Nature Valley bar is bad and “unhealthy.” Because it is not.

What happens when we fall into the food shaming mentality? 

Viewing certain foods as good and bad is detrimental to our mental health. When we view a food as bad, we have the tendency to put that food off limits. And when we say that we cannot have something, our natural instinct as humans is to want that more. What does that lead to? Bingeing. When we also put that “bad” food off limits, it can also just lead to us thinking about it over and over again causing our head space to get a bit foggier and our overall state of happiness to decline.

Viewing food as just food. 

I hardly ever see this mentality around food anymore. Food is such a complicated, messy topic that causes so much stress and anxiety in people’s lives. But the thing is, it shouldn’t. I strongly believe food shaming has a lot to do with it, not to mention the diet industry and unrealistic beauty expectations. But what would happen if we viewed food as just food? No good, no bad. Just looking at food as fuel. Obviously there is the more nutritious food and the “fun” food. But maybe if we worked on being in tune with our bodies and allowing ourselves food from both categories, people’s relationship with food would begin to improve. When we aren’t labeling what we eat as good and bad, it’s also easier to be compassionate to ourselves. Whenever I ate a “bad” food, I felt disgusted with myself. I hated myself for consuming such a disgusting thing and all the love for myself went out the window. But when we eat a cookie and aren’t labeling it as bad, we can be more kind with ourselves. “I just ate that cookie and I LOVED it. It was so good and such a yummy snack to have!” There is no talk about the cookie being bad and any guilt surrounding that cookie. It is just talk of enjoyment! And that’s how it should be.

Food is not like people. There is no good or bad. 

When we think of people, we often label them as good and bad. A good person may have remarkable qualities like being kind, respectful, loving, and caring. And a bad person may have less admirable qualities like being rude, dishonest, vengeful, and irresponsible. These qualities come to mind when I think of good and bad people. So why would we label food the same way that we label people? Are sweet potatoes loving and caring but white potatoes aren’t? You see what I mean?? At the end of the day, it sounds so silly to use this food shaming mentality. Because all food is is just food. It is nourishment. That’s it. No bad, no good. It gives us life, it gives us energy, and it keeps us going. 

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Keep growing good thoughts in your brain. About yourself, about this world, about food, about your body.

// only grow thoughts in your brain that you wouldn’t mind putting in a vase //

Any comments or discussion on this is welcome in the comments as always!!

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What happened When I put my Appearance on Such a High Pedestal?

June 8, 2017 in Recovery

What happened when I put my appearance on such a high pedestal? 

A lot of things happened. My life was completely different than it is now. Focusing on my body, my weight, how I looked- that was what my world revolved around.

When I put the size of my body as the center of my world, I became unhappy.

Striving to always be thinner, to always watch the number on the scale get lower and lower- I could not be satisfied. I had this insatiable desire to shrink and shrink and shrink. Shrinking my body led to shrinking my happiness too.

When I valued my abs showing more than I valued time spent with family and friends, I became cranky.

Abs are made in the kitchen, right? Eating “clean” to maintain my abs led to frustration at family parties trying to find “clean” food, and a feeling of dread before hanging out with friends.

When I cared more about how I looked than about my relationships, my relationships began to dwindle away.

My “health” was my upmost priority- not the people in my life. I watched these relationships fade before my eyes, yet I saw my body becoming smaller and that was all that mattered in my eyes.

What happened when I put my appearance on such a high pedestal? 

I lost my sense of confidence, self-worth, connection, and energy for the world. The passion I once had in my heart became a passion for solely looking a certain way. I never felt good enough, and I never would. I though that by having my body and the way I look on such a high pedestal, people would have known I was serious about this whole health thing- I wanted to be known as the health nut, the fitness girl: and that’s it. I was skinnier than other girls, and I wanted attention for that. 

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By putting my looks as something of such high importance, I forgot there was anything else to me. I just felt as if I was the skinny girl , forever defined by my looks. I only cared about my abs, I felt like other people only did too.. Would they actually care about my words? What else I offered to this earth? By putting my appearance on such a high pedestal, I lost other aspects of myself. I was my body, the food I ate, the workouts I did. And that was it.

So this is your Thursday reminder to stop putting how you look as the main priority of your life. Your identity does not fall in the food you eat or the workouts you do, you are far more than that.

Yes, you have a body. But you are not just your body. 

Search outside yourself, explore new passions, and let your body be your vehicle for this life: not something you are always trying to make smaller. You are enough- just as you are. Your self-worth does not- and will never- depend on how you look or how you weigh. Treat yourself with kindness and respect because you are beautiful and valuable.

Now tell me: 

Any thoughts on this or comments you have. 🙂

Happy Thursday guys!!

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