I’m back at school! I got in around 4 yesterday and unpacked. I had so much stuff it was like I was basically moving in again. Added a ton of new pictures and some quotes to my wall! 🙂
I’m excited to get back into the swing of things and start a new semester! I don’t start classes until Tuesday, so I have this day to just get adjusted and see friends and such which is good.
Anyways, your probably wondering what the heck the title of this post means, or that I’m just a bitch for thinking people are annoying. Well there IS an explanation for it. As I was sitting down to pee yesterday, I noticed this little sign on the door.
“Diet… eating 5 a day and learning portion sizes are ESSENTIAL! Cardio 5x a week for at least 30 minutes; Weight lifting 2x a week working all muscle groups. Alcohol adds extra calories to your diet… choose water.” Blah blah blah blah blah. I couldn’t even enjoy my pee because I got so annoyed with this sign. Like c’mon man.
I see this stuff all over regardless of on a college campus or not. I hear people talking about it, I heard people talking about how they are going to workout ever day and start this diet or eliminate this food and I’m not going to lie, I do get annoyed from time to time and it can be hard to listen to all of this. Especially with the past of an eating disorder. It isn’t healthy for me to be eliminating any sort of food or exercising every single day. That’s just what’s best for me.
But it does get hard because man people are just so god damn annoying sometimes. We live in a diet obsessed world where exercise and losing x amount of pounds is the main focus. A few years back if I saw that sign I would’ve immediately used behaviors; I would’ve skipped dinner or gone to the gym an hour longer. But I don’t do that anymore; I am able to cope with all these triggers.
But how?! Quite frankly sometimes I just laugh. Because when I think about it, half of the stuff on that sign isn’t even true. You don’t have to do 30 minutes of cardio 5x a day to be healthy. There are other forms of physical movement too-what about yoga?! What about just a nice walk, something that may not feel so strenuous? I recognize that half of what people say or these signs are not the full truth. How else do I cope? Well, I realize that I need to do what’s best for me. And what’s best for me is not what’s best for someone else. I am my own person with my own individual needs. What Alyssa needs may be different than, lets say, what Suzie needs. If I want a freaking cookie because I want and am craving one then you bet I will get that cookie. Now if Suzie doesn’t get a cookie that day, then who cares! I’m not going to compare what I eat to what Suzie eats because I know if I do that I’m just going to drive myself bonkers. And that wouldn’t be good. I want the happiest and healthiest version of myself, and I know that by comparing myself to others I am not going to achieve that. I also am able to block out all this diet talk now. Especially with it being January and people with all their new years resolutions, I just know to tune out of conversations where people are only talking about how they need to lose x amount of pounds etc. etc. During these conversations, I will sometimes just go on my phone. Or I’ll even try and switch the topic. Sometimes I add my two cents too, because I have an opinion on all of this and I think it deserves to be heard even if people don’t listen to it. “You don’t need to lose x amount of pounds. You can have the cookie if you want it. You look fine in that dress and your stomach looks great.” I add in my two cents with stuff like that from time to time because I have a say in all this too and it does deserve to be heard.
Basically, people are annoying with this stuff. But you don’t have to let it get to you, you don’t have to let it drag you down and pull you back in your recovery. Focus on YOU, focus on yourself and doing what is best for you. Block out all this diet talk and also don’t be afraid to stand up for what you believe in. NO comparisons, just focus on being the healthiest, happiest version of YOU and I promise you; these little triggers will get easier and easier to cope with. And next time I pee or poo, I’ll probably laugh at the sign or maybe just go in a different stall because I’m not going to be interrupted again by that nonsense.
Now tell me,
Do you get annoyed with all the diet talk?
What are some of your favorite coping skills?
Hope you all have a great day!