Hi guys! I hope you all had a great weekend. Switching it up this week from the typical Mental Health Monday post because I have to talk about something more near and dear to my heart as of now, that being the yoga retreat I went on this weekend.
The retreat I went on this weekend was amazing. Hands down the greatest weekend of my life I would say. Bold statement, I know.
I ventured out to Kripalu Friday morning with zero expectations. I went by myself, for myself, and to better understand myself. I was enrolled in a program called embody love movement, with an incredibly wise woman named Melody Moore as an instructor. We talked about it all. About 10 other women and I poured our hearts out in programs outside of the retreat about our past issues with body image, with food, with eating disorders. We talked. We listened. We felt vulnerable. We felt uncomfortable.
Upon arriving to Kripalu, I checked out my dorm room and met some of my roommates then headed to a vinyasa class which was amazing. I adored the vinyasa classes, and found myself connecting with my practice even more.
This weekend was definitely a huge growing experience for me. Because there are always ways I can grow. There are always ways we can improve ourselves. And you know what? I am far from perfect and I never want to preach that I have it all together, because I don’t. There are moments I wake up in the morning and feel gross. There are moments where I have thoughts of guilt right after I eat something. I get bad gas and get constipated and get belly aches. I cry and I curse and sometimes I spend too long looking in the mirror. But you know what? The amount of growth that I’ve experienced in the past year alone is amazing. I do consider myself recovered, but I do know that as women we are faced with pressures everyday: from our peers, from social media, from the media in general to eat and look a certain way; and sometimes our internal critic turns on and goes at the speed of lightening in the words it says to us. But the difference is? I don’t let it run its course anymore. But you know what? I can work on all these areas. And I learned ways to improve these areas this weekend that I never even knew of before.
The embody love body program showed me the forgiveness that yoga had to offer. It taught me that our pride is not in if we can hold a pose longer than the other girl; our ego should not inflate because we don’t take a child pose at all during our practice. And you know what? This was eye opening to me as well. My pride is not in the minutes I spend at the gym or how long I spend on my mat. My ego should not be defined by how much makeup I’m wearing or if I choose to do a level 3 class instead of a level 2. None of that is intertwined: at all.
This weekend I cleansed myself of social media. I journaled. I sat in the sauna and relaxed. I hiked. I meditated. I let my soul rest. I have new goals for myself. I learned that I’m meant to adventure. I’m meant to travel. Because that is when I shine and grow the most. I connected with so many amazing individuals with powerful stories. I ate intuitively and it felt amazing. I was mindful and in the moment, something I am always trying to work on. I opened my heart to my practice and closed my heart to the negative thoughts I hold against myself and the pressures I place upon myself. I learned that because I am single and not in a relationship there is nothing wrong with me. Nothing. Something I struggled with all freshmen year of college. My soul is content where it is right now. It is content with my relationships with friends, family, yoga, God, this blog. It does not need an individual to make it flourish, because it is flourishing as it is right now greater and bigger than it ever has before.
I could go on and on about this weekend, and I probably will in later blog posts. But wow, I am just so, so blessed. Here’s to the divine light in me recognizing the divine light in all of YOU.
Now enjoy some pictures from this weekend. Because boy, was it just a sight to see this every single day, every single morning. The view of the mountains, the calmness of the rain hitting the trees, and the sun escaping from beneath the clouds and giving us light on our last day was just all truly remarkable.
Now tell me:
What did you do this weekend?
Have you had any self-discovery moments recently?
Have a great Monday guys! Sending lots and lots of love! <3
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