Hi guys! Happy Friday. 🙂 MA got hit with a tonnn of snow. Which I love/hate at the same time. But hey, least lots of snow means snow days!!
Jumping into today’s post because intros suck lol. This topic has been on my mind a lot recently. Orthorexia. For those of you who don’t know, orthorexia is the obsession with eating only healthy foods. It’s basically being fixated on how clean your eating. My good friend Sage shared her journey with orthorexia on her blog, and inspired me to share my own journey with it. (This gal rocks. So thankful to go to school with someone as cool/down to earth/sweet as her!!)
Orthorexia friggin sucks. For me, this is how my eating disorder started. I was obsessed with “clean eating.” At first, it was not about restriction. It was about “Is this organic? I can’t eat this and that because the ingredients are chalk full of artificial sweeteners. I can only grocery shop at Whole Foods and I need to spend at least an hour and a half there so I can analyze the back of every product I am buying.”
Let me tell ya from first hand experience: living with orthorexia takes a toll on all aspects of your life. My mind was clouded by thoughts of food: anxiety about food, worry about food, planning the next day of meals. My social life was impacted, and my relationship with my family members. If I wasn’t going to eat white pasta from home, there was no way I would go out to a restaurant and eat food with unknown ingredients. Jeez what if they put too much oil on the chicken or if I ask for whole wheat pasta and bread but they accidentally gave me white!! These were my daily worries and struggles, and man was it sad to live that way.
The thing is, with eating “cleaner” I lost weight in the process. And I loved the compliments I was getting, I loved the attention. I loved feeling in control of ONE thing in my life. So I kept on eating “healthy” but I started to eat a bit less and less. And that of course led to anorexia, which is a whole other story from today’s blog post.
It was a hard battle getting out of this whole health obsessed mindset. I don’t really have one way I did it. I don’t have a few tips to make it all go away, because jeez it was hard for me to just relinquish control and tell my brain to shut the heck up, it was hard to just eat a cookie and not have it be a mental battle of feeling bad for eating a regular cookie and not a “clean” one. i just really had to train my brain to get out of labeling foods as good and bad. I had to train my brain into the mentality that all foods fit. That means that it is JUST as important to have cookies as it is to have carrots. All foods fit for a happy lifestyle. When I would feel bad for eating something less nutrient dense, I really had to get mad at my brain and my thoughts. I would have to in a way give myself a little pep talk. Something along the lines of “Okay Lyss, you wanted that ice cream so you had the freakin’ ice cream. It tasted great. You love ice cream. Life is meant for fun foods too. Now move the heck on.”
I am courageous. I am whole. I stand in my own power.
Another tip of advice: if you are part of the Instagram world, please be cautious of who you follow. (I am going to go on an unfollow spree soon as well). There are so many accounts that are just filled with all “clean and healthy” foods. And I just don’t think that’s normal. If we’re being 100% real here, those accounts have subconsciously affected me, which is why I know it’s time for a little unfollow cleanse on Instagram. When someone’s eating roasted veggies and hummus for a snack, eating a salad for dinner, and eating a green puke colored smoothie for dessert, that’s when I know I gotta let them do their own thang and I gotta do mine. When someone is posting all quest bars, artic zero pictures, 0 calorie syrup, diet foods, etc. I gotta let go of them too. Because they aren’t serving me and my growth.
In all honesty, it’s so freakin’ easy to get caught up in this whole health nut craze. Sometimes I label myself as that, and I never want to only be known as the healthy girl who likes the gym and going to yoga. Because there’s a whole lot more to me than that. In all honesty, sometimes I need to take the stick out of my a$$ and just get a cookie or a brownie. My best friend gave me a little pep talk about this last week. Not that I am struggling with this, but it was just a nice reminder that going out and letting lose with food is just as important as getting in all your fruits and veg. (Gosh I love that girl lol).
There are some gals who really inspire me with their relationship with food. Kylie from Imma Eat That, Kate from The Domestikated Life, and Robyn from The Real Life RD are some awesome ladies who live a BALANCED life with food. BALANCE. That is what we should all strive for. Balance with food means that all foods do fit, it means that you listen to your body and honor your cravings, that you don’t turn into an obsessive freak with ingredients/ how healthy something is. It means food doesn’t take up all your brain space. Balance means you get the cookie one day and the salad another day. But if you want two cookies you get two cookies. And if you want a smoothie and a salad in the same day you do that too. You don’t complicate things, because food is just food.
“I’ve learned that when you try to control everything, you enjoy nothing.”
No questions today, just would love to hear your thoughts and input on this! And if you have any fun weekend plans, drop ’em in the comments! Hope you all enjoy the weekend. Get some rest and do something FUN! Sending all the love and hugs. <3
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