I’ve spent so much of my time fighting. Fighting my body, fighting the thoughts in my head. I was swimming against in the current, gripping so tightly onto things that did not serve my soul. I didn’t know how to be in the great dance.
This yoga teacher training has brought up several emotions for me. Joy, gratitude, anxiety, sadness, stress, past memories. It is not easy, but my god is it one of the most humbling experiences and greatest things I have ever done.
I’m learning how to be in this great dance of life. Sometimes I lose my footing… a lot of the times actually. But some days I’m the best damn dancer out there.
Being here has taught me so much. Things I already knew, things I needed to be reminded of, things I have learned.
I’m learning to take off my armor. Keeping my doors down and layers light for when I do, I can fully see what is real and true. I can cultivate peace in all aspects of my life. I can be in this great dance- stumbling, falling, laughing, tripping, sweating, moving with grace and somedays moving with awkwardness.
I’m learning this balance between pushing myself and relaxing. Somedays I want to dance until my feet ache, and somedays all I want to do is twirl around in a circle and call it a day. When I am in this great dance, I won’t have judgment for the days I just want to twirl around and move slow. I’ll simply twirl with grace and ease.
In this great dance I don’t always fully love myself. But I accept myself. And I remember all the love I carry in my heart- and how I always deserve that love too. So I dance with love and gratitude for the limbs beneath me, for without them, I couldn’t even dance.
In this great dance, I dance from my heart. For it has carried me through adversity and has led me to the things I love.
When your heart has been clouded with fog and darkness, you have two choices: to continue to live in that darkness, or to work to open the vessels of your heart and let that light pour in: overflowing with warmth and goodness.
It’s okay that madness and pain has overwhelmed you once tender heart. Your story isn’t calm or gracious- but the magic in your eyes and the way your mind glides through the thoughts that tear others down is courageous.
You learn to open the layers of your heart, unpacking hope and faith into each and every crevice.
This is how you learn to be that light that shines on the gloomiest of days. Through hurricanes and rainstorms, loss and ache; you elevated the bliss deep within your soul.
I dance with bliss. I dance with resilience. I dance with courage and love.
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