One week since I’ve blogged, and I apologize for that! This week was very busy and had some ups and downs. Being sick and a lot of stress were some of those downs, but I’ve grown accustomed to the business of college and the stress from assignments. And it’s Friday!
Lately I’ve been feeling a bit stagnant. I feel like I’m at a stand-still. For the passionate, firey part of my soul; that is a tough feeling to deal with. I love creating content for this blog and Instagram, but I’ve honestly felt disconnected from it and a bit uninspired. I question if I’m still making an impact on others lives. I question if the content I am putting out is things that people enjoy reading or seeing.
I’m the type of person that likes to work towards things. I like having something that I look forward to. I’ve been that way since a young age. But I’ve seen how that mindset has led me to dissatisfaction with myself too- I’ve seen how that mindset led me to the “you aren’t doing enough” thoughts or created the idea that the only way I can find happiness is through achieving my goals.
It would be a shame to miss out on the beauty of now just because I’m working to create goals and plans for the future to give me something to work towards. Yes, I want to sit down soon and get all these thoughts in line so I’m feeling a bit more in tune with myself, but regardless of that- I need to continue finding peace in the present.
I don’t talk about it a lot, and it’s something I do intent to talk about more, but the college scene is just not my favorite. I get frustrated being here and lately I’ve been upset with the actions of the world and others around me. I’m not like a lot of people at this college, and that’s okay! But instead of letting the desire to run away to the mountains and connect with likeminded souls consume me, I’m trying to really work on finding peace in the environment I’m in. This has been a goal of mine the past few weeks or so, and it’s something I struggle with- but one thing I’m consciously trying to improve.
Where do I go from here? First, beat this cold and catch up on some relaxation. I want to journal a bit more on this topic and also cultivate some ideas to add some spice into my life with the intention that adding these things won’t make me happy- nor will any adventure or crystal or essential oil… only I’m the one that can find happiness and inner peace in the moment. I want to better appreciate the everyday magic right before my eyes and find more gratitude for where I’m at now in my journey.
Have you ever felt this way?
Tips for when you feel at a stand-still?
How do you life mindfully?
Any tips to keep yourself grounded?
Have a lovely weekend friends!! Sending you all love and light.