Hi guys and happy Monday! How were your weekends? Mine was filled with friends, Mexican food, a good workout with a friend, homework, and church! And not getting enough sleep, but oh whaleeee. I can always catch up on that. 🙂
There’s been some stuff on my mind lately (when isn’t there lol). But stuff in regards to my blog and where I’m at right now.
I’ve talked about it with my mom, some close friends, and my best blogging friend Marina.
The question of “Am I doing enough” has been bugging me in regards to this blog. Over the summer, this blog was one of my top priorities. Putting up new posts, spreading the word about mental health, creating new videos, writing out long inspirational Instagram captions… you name it- I tried to do it all.
But now I kinda feel like I’m all over the place. Classes, homework, social time, clubs, volunteering, working out, errands, and trying to squeeze in time for sleep. I am not in any way trying to sound like my life is so busy or hard, because I have honestly been loving every second of it. I am still trying to post 3x a week and read all my other favorite bloggers, but it hasn’t been at the top of my priority list- and sometimes I feel guilty for that.
One of my biggest problems is trying to tackle too much. And when I can’t do it all, I feel disappointed in myself. I had every intention of writing a mental health Monday post last night, but I chatted with my best friend instead and checked in to see how he was doing. Sometimes things don’t go the way I plan, and I’m learning to accept that each and every day.
This question of am I doing enough has been bugging me too in regards to helping people through this blog. The main reason why I created this blog was to help people and show them that recovery from an eating disorder is possible. And lately I’ve been feeling like I’m not doing my job on that end. I try and touch on a recovery topic once a week, but it’s quite honestly been hard to sit down and write one of these posts. I need to get in the mood to write, and when I open my laptop I feel uninspired or just flat out exhausted. The problem with me is I always want to be doing more to help others. I want to be doing more to inspire others. And I never want to let people down. But this feeling that I haven’t been doing that has been pulling at my heart strings.
I am reminded by different messages and various people around campus that I am helping others through this blog, which is truly a Godsend and a reminder that I am doing the best that I can during this busy period in my life.
I know I will get out of this little blogging funk that I am going through right now. I know with time this question of if I’m doing enough will fade out. And until then, I need to keep reminding myself that I’m doing the best I can- with this blog and with everything else going on in my life. I have always been my own worst critic, and when I told my mom and friends about this feeling I’ve been having in regards to my blog lately; they immediately said that I was overthinking and that I am simply doing all I can. That reminder in itself is enough to get me back on my feet and out of my head.
It’s funny how we are able to tear ourselves apart so well yet would never do that to someone else. We all just need that little reminder that we’re doing great and trying hard. That reminder is enough to keep us going.
Thanks for reading this little ramble guys. I am blessed for each and every one of you who read this blog! You make me smile so freakin’ big.
Now tell me,
Have you ever felt like this in regards to blogging?
How do you prevent negative self-talk?
Have a happy Monday guys!!
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