Happy New Year guys! Can’t believe another year is in the books. 2015 was an amazing year filled with so many incredible moments. I grew in so many aspects, had a lot of self-realizations, met some pretty awesome people, had some ups, had some downs, and really just lived my life to the fullest.
Here’s a little recap of my year:
~I got the eating disorder recovery symbol tattooed on my wrist.
~I got to speak at the recovery center I went to. Going back to the place where I was almost dying before brought back so many memories and it was very surreal for me to be there with a whole different mindset. This time I was healthy and happy; I was a whole different person than that girl who was there 2 years ago, that girl who was in the midst of a battle for her life. Sharing my story to a group of girls and their parents was absolutely amazing for me, and I hoped by being vulnerable and sharing my struggles with this horrible illness that I helped at least one girl there.
~I started an Instagram and WordPress blog documenting my journey to health and happiness and my experiences with recovery from an eating disorder. I got to meet so many wonderful people through this and even though I deleted the Instagram, I still keep in touch with these beautiful souls.
*Alana-this girl is literally the sweetest human ever. I am so thankful that I get to text you everyday, vent about life, and love our FaceTimes/phone calls. I can’t wait to meet you in person one day and I love you SO much. Everyone check out her blog! -> Alana’s blog
*Emily-Following this girl on Instagram this year allowed me to meet an amazing girl. Em, you are seriously one of the strongest girls I know and I am so thankful for our friendship. I hope to continue to stay in touch as I love talking to you. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. <3 Everyone check out her blog! -> Emmy’s blog
*Hayley-Hayley, you are one of my biggest inspirations, and discovering your blog this year is something that I am still to this day thankful for. You are such a breath of fresh air to this world and the blogging community, and you show me that body peace and balance around food is in fact possible. So blessed to have met you! Everyone check out her blog! ->Hayley’s blog
~I vacationed to Florida with my best friend and parents and had a blast.
~I graduated high school! If you asked me as a sophomore if I would have made it through- I would have laughed in your face. I was in such a dark place and was in the depths of my eating disorder throughout my freshman, sophomore, and the beginning of my junior year. Depression engulfed me, anorexia was in control of me, and I never thought I would make it out. To anyone who feels this way: I am living proof that you WILL get through these tough times, you WILL make it through and see the light in life’s darkest moments.
~I got the words “love yourself” tattooed on my shoulder as a lifelong reminder to love myself unconditionally, to love myself through the days where my self-esteem may feel low,to love myself even when I may not be feeling the greatest about my body or when I may not be feeling the greatest about myself in general. These words are so, so important to me and I am to this day still in love with this tattoo.
~I saw Dave Matthews Band, my favorite band ever, with my best friends.
~I vacationed to Cape Cod with my best friends and got to spend time with them before we all headed off to college.
~I moved into college at the end of August!!
~I survived my first college Halloweekend!! I dressed up as a prisoner one night and the other night my friend Jen and I were Serena and Blair from Gossip Girl.
~I had a rough patch with body image/self-esteem in October and November. I fell into the trap of talking poorly about my body and letting my happiness lay in the hands of others. I fell victim to letting the mirror control my happiness and how I felt about myself. My self-esteem took a plummet during this rough patch. I was disappointed that I slipped up a bit in these aspects; but instead of beating myself up for this, I recognized that last year, I would have completely relapsed. I learned from all of this-I learned to not allow what others think of me to dictate my happiness. I learned that I am in fact very strong, as in the past I would have resorted to restricting to cope with these feelings. I learned that it is okay to cry, it is okay to be at a place of struggle as we are only human. I picked myself up from this rough patch, and I came out stronger and wiser.
~I turned 19! My friends from school and I celebrated together. My friends also surprised me and my November bday twinnie with a cake, which was the sweetest and most thoughtful thing ever.
~I got to get in the Christmas spirit with my bffs at school and have a ton of fun with them.
~I survived my first finals week and MAN was it stressful. Long hours in the lib and lots of coffee was consumed. Also thankful for Gab for stickin it out with me at the lib and making me laugh. You are the best human and I love you lots. Gabby writes too and you should all check out her blog 🙂 ->Gabby’s blog
~I got to reunite with my hometown friends AND I get to spend the rest of winter break with them which I am so excited about. Love these girls so so much.
~I spent Christmas with my family and felt so blessed to be surrounded by the people I truly love. I am thankful that I am able to enjoy the holidays without insignificant things like food/calories/exercise get in the way. Recovery is worth it friends.
~I found a huge love for hot yoga this year. I am so passionate about it and discovered the true healing powers that yoga really does have for your body and mind. I cannot wait to do more headstands and crow poses in 2016.
~I discovered that balance is sometimes craving a huge kale salad or a big smoothie bowl and allowing yourself to eat that; but also craving cookie dough ice-cream and allowing yourself to have that guilt free. I discovered that our bodies are smart and know what we need and can balance it all out.
~I strengthened my relationship with exercise, allowed myself to take rest days when I wanted them, worked out in a way that only made me happy and not in a way that I felt like I had to do to burn the optimal amount of calories.
~I learned from my struggles. They all helped me grow in ways I didn’t think were possible.
~I made the switch to create a self-hosted blog, and I cannot wait to see where this takes me. So excited to continue doing something I am passionate about-that being writing and helping others; and I can’t wait to become more of a part of this blogging world.
2015 was such an amazing year full of new friendships, a ton of laughter, and many incredible memories made.
I cannot wait to see what 2016 has in store!
Now tell me,
What were your favorite memories from 2015?
I hope you all had a fun and safe NYE- Happy 2016 guys!!